I want to look this good today
I wish i wasn’t trans. Today more than any other day. I expected transitioning to be hard so i told myself it would be ok. today the facade fell. It’s not ok. it’s horrible and painful and confusing. I am terrified that I’m stuck with this for the rest of my life and if i don’t tell myself it’s ok then i need to die. It feels unbearable.
when I started testosterone I was desperately waiting for my beard. I felt like I’d been waiting for it since puberty (the first one) and once I had that I’d be complete.
I have a beard
Now I’m waiting for my penis to appear.
I literally go from this… to this in the space of about 2 minutes.
1. the second photo could be a photo of my sister
2. I have been told my sister is very beautiful
(I wouldn’t want to comment… she’s my sister after all!)
what, quantitatively, is the difference between saying “i’m really attracted to trans guys” and “most of the people i’m attracted to end up being trans guys”? (substitute trans gals, genderqueer folks, etc as needed.)
there is a substantial difference (i think) between the two but i am having a hard time articulating it.
I think the other difference between the two is the fact that the first defines a very limited sexuality and the second describes pansexuality.
For example: I generally end up with women and most of the time I find feminine qualities attractive but I’m not ‘straight’ because I don’t base my decision to be with someone on their gender or sex, I base it on the person- it just happens to be that most of the time the qualities I seek are found in women.